Men.....Ughhhhh

I really don't like men anymore.....I just get all the wrong ones....I believe you have one true love in your lifetime and I really thought it was my 1st husband ..... we were high school sweet hearts and were together for almost 20 years .... we have 3 beautiful kids together and we had so much.....but he just didn't care ..... I tried my hardest to make it work but he just didn't want to ... everything is his way or no way..... so we broke up.... and of course I ruined his life....( as he puts it) .... I feel I am a good person I try to do the right thing I don't take advantage didn't milk him in child support never took him for a raise in support over 11 years..... now the kids live with him and he is taking me for everything .... all because I ruined his life.... he is paying me back....how do these men sleep at night ..... I did everything for this man.... he was my whole life....and he knew it .... it will be OK .... I am a survivor... then I met another man .... I shouldn't have married him and I knew it but he was a nice guy and he was good to me and my kids.....the complete opposite of the first one.... he wanted to get married because all his friends were and he pushed .... and my kids wanted the family thing .... ( they didn't see there father...he had not time for them ...) and I was in a place that I figured it would be OK and I could do it for the rest of my life.... well I was married for 6 months and found out he was cheating ... he was meeting women off the Internet... I just put a wall up and figured it was a way of life for me .... I could just keep going and no care..... then it got to the point where I need it to work .... I begged him to work things out .... and again nope .... divorced a second time ..... now he is ready to work things out .... these men just don't get it ,.... I can only try for so many years.... then I am done trying ... and it is over .... well this one made me and his daughter leave the house and I had to let my son go to his fathers and now I am bankrupt..... then I start dating a man that is different from them all.... so I thought .... he found me .... I didn't find him.... well it was all fun and everything was suppose to be great .... well he has no job and no income and can't help me out .... he was suppose to help me out when he moved in .... so now I am totally broke and have to go live with my mom .... well I guess tings happen for a reason .... and she could use my help so we will see.... another new adventure in my life.... and just for kicks.... with all of the men in my life ... the money was mine.... my first husband ... I made more money and bought our house and got him his great job ..... second husband I had all the money and he bankrupt me.... and the 3rd guy well he just makes me totally broke.....lol...lol...lol...I will say though if the 3rd guy had money he is the guy for me...... we love doing things together and being with each other..... he just really has nothing and I can't support all of us.... well I think I should give up .... lol...lol...lol...lol...