I am so upset........I guess this is what they mean when they say you have consequences for your actions....I have made some bad choices and now I have to deal with the consequences.......I try to do the right thing but I follow my heart and not my gut.....and I just don't know how to say no and hurt peoples feelings.... and no one cares about my feelings....it really sucks....I know I will get through this it just hurts like hell.... and makes me so sad and depressed.....I have to let my boyfriend go .... and if we were meant to be we will be... and I can look at the bright side .... it will give me a place to go on vacation and it doesn't cost alot at all....and I can go in the winter and be warm...lol.... and he can come visit me.... and there are worse things in life than moving back home with mom and dad..... I can try and save some money and get back out on my own... I won't be able to save much it will take awhile but hey i can do it.....I just have to stay positive....things work out for a reason... I do believe that...I will miss him terribly .... but I guess I will find out if he really feels the way he says he does for me..... I wish we could look into a Chrystal ball and see the future and make our choices on that.... wouldn't that be great ... boring but good....lol...I guess I do love this guy ..... I didn't think I did but it is killing me to let him go.... but we will see.... he says he is going to send for me...lol..lol...lol... he is going to get set up and then convince me to come ..... we will see.....